I am mad. The doctor says I'm mad. I am slowly losing my mind.
The doctor said that I am too dependent on Frau Alpert. He's right of course, but I love her. He said that she must leave me and left she has, or at least she is not here any more. I don't know where she is, but I have not left her. How could I? I am, as always, in her mind, as deep as I can go.
I lie in bed most of the time; why should I go anywhere? Betty gives me a sock, only one sock, even this is difficult. Two socks are very difficult – what should I do with which sock. Sometimes I put the sock on my foot and Betty gives me another sock – more problems. And then the underpants. My hands begin to shake. What should I do. I don't want to do anything. It is so frightening. Betty puts her arms round me, she is so comforting.
I'm mad. I can do what I like. I entered Betty's mind. It was not so easy. Frau Alpert's mind is like a large forest, full of glades and beautiful trees, absolutely wonderful. Betty's mind is like an ornate park and you have to find your way through a maze of hedges to find your way in. Betty resisted at first; I don't know why. I am in her mind and it is as comforting as Frau Alpert's. Thank you, Betty.
I'm mad. I can do what I like. I entered Stefanie's mind. It was easy. Even easier to come out again. There was nothing in it.
Betty and Stefanie care for me. They stop me doing silly things. They feed me. I would be lost without them. Please help me!